It has been a while...

I felt stupid and in the past few months I realized that lots of my time back in grad school was completely wasted. There is such wild wild west out here...

I felt depressed for realizing my ignorance... and my inefficiency and my lack of understanding of the people ard me...

I grasp thing very slowly. For whatever reason, my brains juz shut down when ppl start talking to me... This is so strange and I felt intimidated when i talk to ppl.

But I seem to be able to understand to lectures and talks... why?

Is there sth wrong with me? Why do I always feel overwhelmed with ppl talk to me?

I completely