I got a bad cold two days ago and still feel miserable. I was hoping my girlfriend would have given me a call but of course that didn't happen. I guess at this stage we are both tired out. She is tired of my white lies and I am tired of her lack of sympathy. I am a spoiled little kid who is fond of attention. Yes, I understand she might be busy but a call or an email ( or even a voice mail) is what I am asking for.
I remembered back in my freshman year I fell sick and a friend of mine knocked on my door and brought me some medication. I was shocked. Her genuine concern for me really struck me as an act of true friendship and since then she has been one of my best friends (she is too weird to be a girlfriend and I never think about that).
I am very disappointed and feel completely awful at this point. What happens? Why our relationship has gone so wrong that I needed to call her up and told her that I had been a half-dead zombie waiting for her love and concern in the past two days? Perhaps we have taken each other for granted. I am tired and I don't give a damn. In the end, it takes two hands to clap. I gave up and called up my girlfriend and made her feel guilty. This act of begging made me even more disgusted with myself. Enough begging and whining. I need my dignity back. Big ego is back.
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